I am traveling today and I always feel the need to pump up some energetic protection when I do. Often it even expands to an almost anxious state. As a student, practitioner and teacher of the etheric realm I am aware of taking on other energies or simply being sensitive to other energies. In an airport, anywhere you have a gathering of people, you will have many, many energies, some of them good, some low vibrational and some downright nasty. It's this collection of energies that can push me off center, they blow through me like a frantic wind.
As my morning progressed, so did my anxiousness. To the point that I cancelled my morning clients as I was in no state to help anyone see their true selves and heal. This act was the golden nugget in my day. It is rare that I cancel on a client, but this felt right and this single act of honoring my present state and caring for myself allowed the root cause of my anxiety to surface.
This is my first trip back to Florida since my friend passed away in April. She was too young and it was so quick and I still don't know how to navigate in this world without her here. The four of us friends created our own family and raised our kids together. We were the 'Ya-Ya's' and we were a force to be reckoned with. Their friendship has held me in so many places throughout my life.
I sometimes think that my living so far away is easier. We did talk often or text but I only saw her a few times each year. Other than her 'Celebration of Life', this will be the first time I'm there and she won't be there and I don't know what to do with that. However, because I allowed myself to do what felt right for me today, I know what to do to help myself. I can soothe this. I now know what it is and I can face it, honor it, and move through it. That's what I needed, time to allow the true cause of my anxiety to surface, to be seen, to be loved.
The reason for my trip is a wedding. It's the last of our kids to get married and it's going to be beautiful and at the same time, profoundly different. I know she will be there in spirit, she would never miss an event like this, especially if there's going to be a party.
I love you Pam.